Thursday, July 24, 2008

Serenity's first haircut = bald Serenity... either way, she's still adorable ^_^

Life

Monday July 7, 2008

Life

In life, you live and you learn...
it's all about making mistakes and learning from them, right?
well...i've made my share of mistakes...and I have a feeling 
that for the rest of my life I'll continue to make mistakes.
Hopefully I'll be able to learn from them and live happily.

Becoming a mother has totally given me a new perspective
on life...Serenity is everything to me.  And I will do everything
I can to protect her...even if that includes it being just the 2 of us
I just hope that I can do right by her...

I'll be returning to work for the family after this week...
Gotta start making extra $ to pay the bills and take care of Serenity.
I already know that I won't be able to depend on her father for help with
anything...he chose where he wants to stand when it comes to us...
and for that...it's probably better off that way.  

Serenity has been my focus and part of that focus was to have both 
mommy & daddy in her life...but that doesn't look like it's going to work
so...yea. I probably should have guessed that when he didnt know how to hold
her...or change her diaper...or even know how to prepare her bottle...somehow
at these times i wish i did drag him to the baby classes...but oh well.
it might be better if i took care of her anyways...

Serenity sleeps with her mouth open...and then sometimes she'll smile
in her sleep.  She truly is an angel.  She's starting to worry me lately
though.  When we first came home from the hospital she was sleeping an average
of 3-4 hours after every bottle feeding...including the early morning.
but for this past week she's been very very fussy after her last bottle before
bed.  im wondering if she's colicky...my mom & i have to take turns at night
trying to comfort her and rock her to sleep...she doesnt go to bed till
like 3 or 4 in the morning. During the day..she sleeps like it's nothing.
She'll wake up...drink her bottle, burp, and fall asleep...but that's only
during the daylight. *sigh*

Other than that...I've been sleeping when she sleeps...that i got down!