Dear Serenity,
You are now 2 years old and you are such a rambunctious child.
You are so smart and curious about everything.
I hope that I am able to be the best that I can for you and to teach you not to make the same mistakes I have.
Mommy has made plenty of stupid decisions.
And for the most part those decisions @ the time is what was best for me.
I don't expect anyone to understand or try to comprehend what I was going through or what was on my mind,
but I can assure you that all decisions were thoroughly thought through.
For example, your name. Your Daddy and I had our ups and down through out the pregnancy, and after one too many arguments and missed baby classes and doctor appointments I decided that you would carry my name and my name only.
I hope you know that I had your name picked out ever since I was 15 years old...Mommy would wake up in the mornings and watch early morning cartoons. Sailormoon would come on @ 5:30 or 6:00...And that's where I got your name from. Mommy was a Sailormoon fanatic...actually I still am :) but thats besides the point.
You are a very determined little child. But maybe its cause you're very curious.
Or maybe cause you're stubborn and hard-headed? Lord knows both your father and I are. LoL
You are now very sneaky.
When you want something from me and I say no, your run to Grandpa or Grandma.
When you want something from them and they say no, you run to me.
Do you honestly think we don't know?! I'm your mother! HELLO!
But still...I'm not going to lie. You are really something else.
You love staying up late @ night with me.
You love Finding Nemo...I hope you dont ruin the disc for playing it so much >_<
You love your cousin Bianca. Even though you guys take turns hitting each other on the head and pulling each others hair. And you constantly fight over one another water cup...I'm guessing thats how you show your love to one another.
You are aware of when you fall down. And @ times you PURPOSELY fall down and look @ me...giggle and say "MOMMY I FALL DOWN!" and you get up...and repeat.
When I ask you where you're hair is, you pull your hair.
When I ask you where you're eyes are, you poke at your eyes (I pray you dont hurt yourself...hahah)
When I ask about your nose, you point to your nose.
When I ask about your teeth, mouth, hands, and feet, you show me.
You love the ipod touch that Gogo bought Mommy. yea...its more yours than mine.
You wont even let me touch it! If I get that ipod touch with the facetime...YOU ARE NOT TOUCHING IT. Even if you start crying. well...that depends on how hard you cry...I'll think about it. hahah
I know that there have been a lot of things that is going on in Mommy's life right now, just know that you are still number 1 in my life. There is not a second that goes by of everyday that when I'm not with you that you are not on my mind. I wonder how to be a better mother or wonder about the future and what it holds in store for us. I hope that you will be able to proud of me just like I am proud of you.
I had to learn this the hard way, but I will never ever regret any decision I have made.
Why?
Because each of those decisions got me you.
And NOTHING will ever change that.
And even if I had the opportunity or a 2nd chance to do over anything...I wouldn't.
Loving you forever and always, baby girl :)
You are so smart and curious about everything.
I hope that I am able to be the best that I can for you and to teach you not to make the same mistakes I have.
Mommy has made plenty of stupid decisions.
And for the most part those decisions @ the time is what was best for me.
I don't expect anyone to understand or try to comprehend what I was going through or what was on my mind,
but I can assure you that all decisions were thoroughly thought through.
For example, your name. Your Daddy and I had our ups and down through out the pregnancy, and after one too many arguments and missed baby classes and doctor appointments I decided that you would carry my name and my name only.
I hope you know that I had your name picked out ever since I was 15 years old...Mommy would wake up in the mornings and watch early morning cartoons. Sailormoon would come on @ 5:30 or 6:00...And that's where I got your name from. Mommy was a Sailormoon fanatic...actually I still am :) but thats besides the point.
You are a very determined little child. But maybe its cause you're very curious.
Or maybe cause you're stubborn and hard-headed? Lord knows both your father and I are. LoL
You are now very sneaky.
When you want something from me and I say no, your run to Grandpa or Grandma.
When you want something from them and they say no, you run to me.
Do you honestly think we don't know?! I'm your mother! HELLO!
But still...I'm not going to lie. You are really something else.
You love staying up late @ night with me.
You love Finding Nemo...I hope you dont ruin the disc for playing it so much >_<
You love your cousin Bianca. Even though you guys take turns hitting each other on the head and pulling each others hair. And you constantly fight over one another water cup...I'm guessing thats how you show your love to one another.
You are aware of when you fall down. And @ times you PURPOSELY fall down and look @ me...giggle and say "MOMMY I FALL DOWN!" and you get up...and repeat.
When I ask you where you're hair is, you pull your hair.
When I ask you where you're eyes are, you poke at your eyes (I pray you dont hurt yourself...hahah)
When I ask about your nose, you point to your nose.
When I ask about your teeth, mouth, hands, and feet, you show me.
You love the ipod touch that Gogo bought Mommy. yea...its more yours than mine.
You wont even let me touch it! If I get that ipod touch with the facetime...YOU ARE NOT TOUCHING IT. Even if you start crying. well...that depends on how hard you cry...I'll think about it. hahah
I know that there have been a lot of things that is going on in Mommy's life right now, just know that you are still number 1 in my life. There is not a second that goes by of everyday that when I'm not with you that you are not on my mind. I wonder how to be a better mother or wonder about the future and what it holds in store for us. I hope that you will be able to proud of me just like I am proud of you.
I had to learn this the hard way, but I will never ever regret any decision I have made.
Why?
Because each of those decisions got me you.
And NOTHING will ever change that.
And even if I had the opportunity or a 2nd chance to do over anything...I wouldn't.
Loving you forever and always, baby girl :)
