Sunday, March 01, 2009

9 months...that is how long it has been since Serenity has graced us with her presence. And for 9 months now I've been taking buku photos. Yesterday we went to Portrait Innovations & we took pictures. Here are a few of them... Although things between Ricky and I are not where I had hoped for it to be, I'm happy with my decision. For the first time in 8 years, I'm single.  In 2001 I met Toan...We were together for a few and we broke up....After Toan I was with Michael...that lasted a little under a year and then I met Nhat at Julie's wedding.  After 2 1/2 years of another long distance relationship I met Ricky.  Just like any new relationship we were happy together and there were no arguments...he talked I listened, I talked he listened...and then as the months went on it got worse.  And then I found out I was pregnant. And that was basically where my journey begins.  9 months of up and down...and she's here...I wouldn't change it for the world. On the otherhand with my relationship with her father...it got to the point where I felt that I deserved to be treated better.  Every guy is capable of being an asshole and every girl is capable of being a bitch...but when it came to the point when the guy is an ass cause she's a bitch and vice versa...that relationship has ended.  Neither of us was willing compromise so it was better off just ending it. I will always love Ricky because he is Serenity's father but as far as a boyfriend, I just didn't feel like having to cry every other day.  For once in 9 months, I'm single and focusing on Serenity and making myself happy without a special someone. Of course it gets lonely and I miss the late night cuddle sessions and or late night phone sessions...but I know that one day...my prince will come.  By that time I will be happy with being by myself and enjoying life with just Serenity...My prince will be an added bonus... Okay well off to watch the baby.