Guardian Angel

Dear Serenity,

It's now almost a month since your Aunt Crystal has passed. 
Honestly I'm still in shock that shes no longer going to be around.  She won't be texting me and asking me how you are or even posting on Facebook anymore about how she misses you and how she can't wait to see you again. Most of all, she is no longer here for Nanu or for Ricky. 
Life and death.  How do I even begin to explain it to you?
At five years old, I can't even imagine what or how your mind will process facts about life and death.
When you are older and know more, I will explain further in details.

July 27, 2013 Ricky skyped with you.  He asked if we can go to Houston next weekend. Kinda odd cause we were planning on going the next day already so that kind of surprised me with that request.So I inquired why should we go next weekend and that's when he broke the news.  Your Aunt Crystal passed on Friday.  Ricky was making plans to fly back for the funeral.
So the next day we headed to Houston.  Checked in the room and dropped you off with Nanu.  You seemed to enjoy your time with her and that's great.  You had no hesitation in staying with her.  We picked you up on Monday afternoon, did some shopping and headed home.

August 2, 2013 We left Baton Rouge and headed back to Houston for you to attend your Aunt's funeral.  Originally, the funeral was going to be held in Iowa, but Nanu decided to have it in Houston instead.  We took the 4 hour drive and got to Houston around 6 o'clock for the wake.  The moment we arrived, there were already guests there at the funeral home.  You walked in and EVERYONE knew who you were.  That's how much Aunt Crystal spoke of you.  You're spunk and sassy personality, you seemed to remind everyone of Crystal in one way or another.  Every time she saw you she'd say the same thing, "You're sassy just like Auntie Crystal."  In her eyes, you were a mini version of her.

August 3, 2013 The funeral.  You sat through the funeral like a good girl should.   When the time came to say good-bye, Ricky took you to see Crystal.  (Mommy doesn't do well at funerals, but of course it's never a good-bye. Just see you later.) At the end of the service, you were right beside Ricky.  I can see you saw how everyone was hurting and you fed off of their feelings.  When someone came up to hug Ricky, you joined in on the hug too. Your little arm wrapped around them and you held up like a little big girl should. 

Ricky and I always talked about making plans on you meeting Ricky's side of the family.  Never in a million years did I think that THIS would be the way you would meet them.

She touched a lot of people's lives Serenity, and I hope that one day you have the same impact on people as she did.  When she walked into a room, her smile and laugh was quite contagious.  She was a trip when she'd drink.  Those were some memorable moments.  Just know now you have a guardian angel looking over you.

Hugs and kisses,
Mommy