You Don't Need Him. He NEEDS You.

Dear Serenity,

Wanna see what grown ups talk about?!

04:53 PM	Ricky: How's thy doing ?
04:54 PM	Khe Nguyen : Good. I got her a leap pad and shes playing.
05:10 PM	Ricky: How's her school. I hear she don't like it.
05:11 PM	Khe Nguyen : Its good. Its up and down. Today she told me that she wanted to go
	ԀτȂback to school after i picked her up.
05:14 PM	Ricky: She isn't getting picked on or anything is she?
05:14 PM	Khe Nguyen:Theres only 8 students in the class. she enjoys it. She just doesnt
	like to b there without us.
05:22 PM	Any suggestions for what she should be for Halloween?
05:42 PM	Ricky: She said that?
05:43 PM	She's old enough to decide now. She can be whatever she wants.
05:44 PM	Khe Nguyen : She doesnt get the concept of halloween. No. Every child goes throu
	gh that. Its separation anxiety.
05:53 PM	Ricky: She has already grasped the concept. She likes playing dress up in jewelry and stuff. Same thing she just doesn't know what holidays are.
05:57 PM	I will be picking her up on the weekend she is scheduled to be here. (Mind you this is AFTER he said he no longer wanted to see you and that you were no daughter of his.)
05:58 PM	Khe Nguyen : We need to sit down and have a conversation before that happens.
05:59 PM	Ԁ̽ȁIts not fair to her that u come and pick her up and then drop her o
	Ԁ̽Ȃff because she said something u didnt like. She doesnt need that.
06:17 PM	This is the same thing that happened before when she was younger.
06:50 PM	Ricky: Oh I'm sorry, please retract that. I didn't mean to imply that I would be picking her up personally. But I will arrange for her to be picked up safely. And there is only one person I feel I need to speak with that person being Thy. This subject has nothing to do with you. It is between my daughter and I. Unless you need something for her I can find no reason to sit down and/or converse with you or anybody else. If you feel you have a need for dramatics be my guest, but I will not participate. And Furthermore if you decide that you don't want her to be here that is your decision you are her mother. Sad though it may be for me just know that it is her that will be affected the most. That is all I have to say take care and goodnight. (I find this kind of pathetic.  He wants to see you but he will not take out the time to come and get you and drop you off...but rather he will send someone else to do it.  I'm still debating about how I feel about this one...)
07:24 PM	Khe Nguyen : Noone is being dramatic. I am doing what is best for Serenity. Something that i've come to terms that you cant be depended on for her sake. How do i not know ur gonna do a repeat of 2 weeks ago to just bring her home because u get upset or whatever the reason is i dont know. Serenity is a bright child and as her parents we should be able to sit down to speak with each other in regards to her. Your actions is in regards to her and if you dont recognize that than i dont see why you are making it more difficult on yourself. Whats sad is the reason you have this relationship with your daughter is because of what you did and did not do. So it does affect her but it was all on you. She will be fine with or without you being a part of her life.

I'm guessing it's safe to say that Ricky dislikes the arrangement that has been set forth by the court in regards to seeing you.  And all I can say is that, he brought all this up on him.  We gave him plenty of times to get his act together and do right by you and still it's a lost cause.  Not only that but twice so far he has not been able to keep you a full 48 hours because "he doesn't like something that you had done or said to him."  I hope and pray Serenity, that the people you are around now...Mommy, Daddy Moon, Grandpa, Grandma, Daddy Martin, Uncle Timmy, Auntie Mommy, Di Dieu, Di Nhi, Zoe and all your cousins will let you see that just because Ricky might not be a big part of your life...that you have this "Daddy Issues" when you are older.  I have no doubt in my mind that Ricky loves you and cares for you because you are his daughter, but I also feel that he is on the opposite end of that as well because of what has happened in the past.  I have let go and moved on and happy as can be. Too bad I can't say the same for Ricky.  It's a shame though.  He wanted time to spend with you and was given the time to spend with you but because its not to his liking, this is how he acts. 

I'm not quite sure what emotional drama or stress Ricky is going through, and frankly, it's none of my business. But when it comes to you, it is my business and he doesn't seem to see that.  No one is being dramatic and if anyone is being dramatic it's him.  He said that you're "IT" like you're a thing because you told him you "hated" him...and now he acts as if it's all okay? What's worse?! He can't even come get you but has to send for you. Court order is that HE has to come get you...not someone else.  I would have figured that he would have wanted to spend as much time with you as he can, but I guess I was wrong.  I'm guessing it has to be on his terms.  Unfortunately, I'm not willing to agree to his terms because he has yet to show me he's capable of meeting those terms. All I see and know, is same old Ricky.

I'm sorry Serenity. I'm sorry that Ricky is like this towards you and that you are too young to understand the bigger picture in all this.  I'm sorry that there is nothing I can do to help Ricky grow up and realize that it's much more than what he thinks it is.  I hope that as you get older, you read these posts and know how much I care for you.  These are events that I know you won't remember, but I will never forget.

I can't tell the future of what may come between Ricky and you...but just know regardless of what Ricky decides and when that will ever happen....just know that I will forever and always love you.
Even though we have our mother/daughter differences...you will still be my baby girl. 

Forever and always,
Mommy