Tuesday, May 3, 2011 at 11:44am

Dear Serenity,

My darling baby girl. You will be proud of me.
It took me 35 months to get it done, but I did it.
After constantly fighting and arguing with your father, I did what I promised to do.
No more fighting, I took it to the courts.
I saw your father today.  Looked the same like he always did. Oh, I also saw his girlfriend. Didn't talk to her though cause your father didn't care to introduce us.  I figured if he wanted me to know who she was he would have introduced me. But he didn't.
We've come to an agreement as far as visitation is concerned, and I hope that as time passes by I will be better at letting you go with him.  But for now, we are taking it day by day.
I hope you realize that I chose to take it to the courts because your father and I were not able to come to an agreement. And for all three of us, it was better to have the courts decide since he and I are both stubborn and hard-headed.   I guess now I know where you get it from.
You're father's family has not been speaking to me ever since I served him with the paperwork.
Everyone is busy with their own lives baby girl.  But that does not mean that they don't love you.
I thought that after today, I would be happy cause this would be done and over with. We will be revisiting it on May 24th and for now...I can honestly say that I have mixed emotions.
I never wanted our relationship to be taken to the courts but I was not really given a choice after our last encounter with Daddy.

I hope that when you spend time with him you are well-behaved and well-mannered.
Please don't whine too much when you don't get your way.
Please don't pout when your Daddy does not give you what you want to eat.
Please do not ask him for ice cream when you first wake up in the morning.
Don't wake up too early and cause Daddy to wake up. Your Daddy is not a morning person.
He may have changed, but for as long as I can remember, Daddy was a night owl.
Daddy loved to play peek a boo with you when you were younger. You're older now, but you still love it the same.
Be curious with your Daddy just like you are with me. Asking him "what's this?"
Snuggle up with your Daddy when you are in bed.  You were with him when you were younger.
If Daddy takes you to the movies, I hope that you are not as rambunctious as you are with me.
Make sure you let Daddy know that you can feed yourself. You're a big girl.
Don't forget to tell Daddy that you gotta go "pee pee in the potty"
Do not keep asking your Daddy for sprite.

More than likely, regardless of what I ask of you I'm sure your father will spoil you.
I just hope he remembers to discipline you as well along side it.
Although he hasn't seen you since January, and even though your Aunt Crystal and your grandmother and grandfather has not seen you either...just know that does not mean they do not love you.

Interesting piece of information your father just texted me. He doesn't like me and he doesn't want me to be a part of his life. Guess what. Too bad, so sad.  He's getting you every other weekend so therefore, he's gonna have to deal with me every other weekend that he has you. Remember, Mommy said you can't always get what you want and life does not always turn out the way we would like for it to.
We play the hand we are dealt and make the most of it.

Everyday when I look at you, I see your Daddy more and more.
And I see me through your actions more and more. I hope that drives your Daddy bonkers :D
Just remember. No matter where you are. No matter who you are with.  Both your Mommy and Daddy loves you very much. Moon adores you as well, and so does Zoe.
I'm sure that when Daddy's girlfriend meets you, she will come to love you just as much as we do.
I hope that you do not rebel against Moon because he is not Daddy and I hope that you will not do the same toward Daddy's girlfriend because she is not Mommy.
Everyone has the right to be happy.
I can't speak for your Daddy, but at one point in time I was happy with your Daddy.
I can't say that Daddy was happy with me, but apparently if he was...he's not right now...oops.

Moon came into our lives at just the right time.
And I could not be happier.  Now if everything with your Daddy gets settled, I will be that much more happier.  I hope that as time goes by, your Daddy and  I will be friends like we were before he became a bitter ex-boyfriend.  For your sake, just know that not all relationships end up with broken hearts.
Mommy kissed her frog and found her prince.  I know one day you will too.
And hopefully your Daddy will turn in the that prince for that special princess one day too.
Just know that we will always always always love you :)